I'm confused about Andrew. I don't know if he likes me or not, but egh. The way that Ashley "accidentally" told him that I liked him went like this:

Ashley: "Hey, someone from our art class likes you."
Andrew: "Really? Is it Miladel?"
Ashley: "What? Oh uhhhhhhhhh..."

She ment to say that someone ELSE in our art class likes him. This one chick also named Ashley. But what SUPRISES me is that, I did not even make it obvious that I liked him. NOT AT ALL. And he guessed that I did? Right off the bat? Stephanie said that he probably likes me, because it would only make sense because he probably wouldn't have guessed me, without having so... or something. It made sense when she explained it.

UGH I am being such an idiot. But whatever, frown upon me as much as you want. I'm just being a teenager. Just another teenager that goes through the same teenager issues as everyone else. I guess I'm like, "BLAH" for being like everyone else and actually having feelings, and actually SHOWING them, but egh. I have to grow up some day and I don't think I should really compress my feelings much longer.

Other than Andrew, I really don't want a boyfriend/relationship right now. I mean, it would be perfect *just thinking about it* if Andrew and I got together... or something... because gosh, we go to the same school. We like the same types of music. He's the freaking same age and grade as me, thank god. And he actually lives in Santa Cruz! I made a promise to myself a looooooong time ago that I would NEVER EVER go out with a guy that's more than 3 years older than I am. I mean, even 3 years is a lot to me right now. I'm just a teenager. I'm still in highschool, and dating someone out of high school is just kind of wierd. Really wierd. And personally, I know I'm not mature enough to handle with that, you know? Plus, dating older guys is just.... ewww.

I'm so picky. But hey, it's just like what Isaac said a long time ago: Mil, it would take FOREVER for you to find a boyfriend. Because most guys would annoy you and you probably will not be able to stay with them for long periods of time without having the urge to rip his fucking head off.

I laughed and took that as a compliment. =)